i've got this lump in my throat and its not going away.

Time heals all wounds, right?
Mine is still fresh. In fact, day by day, it becomes worser.
Park Jaebeom, missing you.
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Training today was.... (fillintheblanks)
Played friendly with Broadrick Sec.
First game, I defended quite well.
Second game was terrible, ugh. A lot of mistakes ):

So what if we won?
Broadrick's not up to Cedar standard.
Come on, Zonals Top 4.
We can do it.
We are not 13, we are ONE.

Finished my maths -all questions done-
New feat, no blankssss.
Now am off to Geog and my h/w is done.

Cheer up Yufang. We're all behind you.
I feel so drained out.
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Edit: This post has no smileyfaces.
I feel like a zombie.


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lost and insecure, you found me

"Carnival" @ RGS
Met Shahfiqah first in the bus, I was wearing my barbie cape LOL. So cute! :> Then met dumb lobster @ Hougang and trained to Dhoby, where we coincidentally met J, S and D. (I'm too lazy to write their names!) 190 to RGS, we didn't get lost whee whee! <: Did I mention 190 was humongous? Like 2 buses jointed tgt. Splitted into groups, we got into "Strawberry Shortcake" w/ (let me see if I can remember) Shiying, Sinyee, Natalie, Yu Jun, Asyikin from Cedar
Richelle and (??) from Raffles
Jasmine, Alissa, Jia Yan and Suriya from St.Margs

K anw passes w Jasmine, she's such a cutie :>
Jia Yan and Suriya are rly nice, but that Alissa kinda scares me? She looks damn pro.
I played shittily, ajsdaja when am I gonna get my non-existing proness back?!?!
Hai hai.

After the -boring- games, we had ice bath! Omg its like damn fun! Kiddy pool + bags of ice!
:> Its suppose to contract your muscles or smt. Damn cold! Like super, super cold until your legs feel like the damn 'sharp' pain and its damn cold until you "cant feel your ass anymore" - Quoted from Gerryyy. Yufang was screaaaming like some madwoman! 8D

Then off to bath! Crashed Jiwon, Sarah, Tammy and unknown stranger's "secret place" :P
Hehehe. Then met up with Nat and G, found the rest and off to Ion!

Ion Orchard
I freaking saw a huge cardboard statue of Lee Min Ho outside Etude!!! Wanted to take photo but then when we wanted to find Etude again cannot find -.-" Had fun at Ion, camwhore here and there but doesn't feel enough. Everyone was tired and lag so went home sweet home.







Going to sleep nao, nights! Yst i slept for half and hour and i'm yawning like siao.

And i'd like to share some icons I found on LJ! :> They're currently my display pictures on MSN :> Use them too and spread the (L)!

(1-4)

(5-8)

(9-12)

(13-16)

(16-19)

(20-23)

(24-27)

(28-31)


/edit: I found out that (??) is Janice! (Natalie surprisingly remembered.)

My friend is one... who takes me for what I am.

:> Hai hai bb, i am so drained, but am happy!

Results
I am not happy, but I've made drastic improvement in humans subs! :> And maths too. Used to fail badly but alot of ppl failed in the whole cohort so whateverrr. My science made me sad.

Maths - D7
Science - C6
History - A1
Geography - A1
Lit - A1
Art - A2

Netball Sec 4 Farewell
Water balloooons w/ Sec 1s and 2s, Hide and Seek ard school arnd 6.30pm! Super fun i tell youuuu. Supposed to find Sherly and Saranya but we ended up running away frm them for goodness knw what reason! HAHAHA :> Then we played 'superspy' (imaginary!!) w Shahfiqah Diviya Natasha Natalie Sinyee Shiying Sarah Tammy Jaime :> Hahaha! Still got stupid James Bond soundtrack. Omgz what a fun fun day.

Read my fanfic plz :> My first attempt featuring GDxSeungri! G-Ri love :>
(Do you know what the worst feeling in the world is? It has to be missing someone.)



Now i'm beat.

Cedar Prata, We're the best best best

Eriko is a levitating monster and Shiying is s-c-a-r-y. Our captains = freaky ppl!

Midfielders! Constipators.

Nicest pic!

Love love love love

Sports day was okay. Loved garde + bougae + rose cheers! :)

I was bored halfway and then went t look for netballers haha. Took picts and aft that camwhored at the track, then went for team lunch (i didn't fast due to mbd) and a failed team talk (LOL) then went to KNC.

After training we went t leisure park and then 3 of our dear friends abandoned us. SHIYING GERALDINE SINYEE!!!@@@ I H8 U but i will be nice and forgive them even though they are very mean.

So me and shahfiqah and Natalie had rly nowhere to go...so we went to macs and ate (alottt)

then we were in need of $$$ so we went money-hunting on the floor and we even went to KFC to find $$$ we had like $1.95 and our goal was $2.55 to buy fries haha. Then we went back t KNC and spent $1.50 on drinks + ants (-.-) and then we found 10cent coin!!! So happy. then we threw the remaining coins at the playground.

Took bus and went home, 89-ed with Natalie, laughed at our pictures.

Slept.

And now i'm writing this.

HAAHHA.

This has got to be the boringest entry ever!!
But today was so fun, thanks ppl!

Thanks Natalie for uploading the pictures!!!

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K ive been opening blogger.com/post-create but i've been surfing website after website after website........... i'm even procrastinating online w.t.f.

Firstly, i failed my maths by 1/2 mark and my science just passed on the dot.
LIKE ON THE DOT. I was so effing disappointed in myself i basically sobbed at my seat lah. 1/2 of the class failed too. MASA wasn't very nice during Maths either. quit harping alrdy! we know we suck ok, move on! Then aft his class ran to toilet, Sarah cried like fountain and everyone ard were comforting her/crying along with her. Think MASA saw cos during sci he was like v nice and funny and made this speech abt "1O girls just as good as the 1C/1H girls out there" and the "show me what youre made of" kinda stuff which made me sniffle. Heh ok.

Secondly, Diviya was nice.
Oklah she's always nice but yst she was being super nice and comforting about me screwing up can, and she even treated me to oldchangkee :( i feel super bad cos she had v little money left
and i refused like hell-l-l but she insisted so yeah.. :) She also listened to me major crapping/ranting abt my life. 8D

Thirdly, Netball trng was funnest in a long time.
Netball has always been fun but yst training was god, awesome epicness amazingness wowness.
Did a killer run, survived it haha. It felt goooood. Then some funny situps/jumping jacks thingy while the shooters did their thing. Jiwon was talking bout her undies and claimed i like them. Hahhaahahah my undies nicer tyvm :) Then played Bball!!!! Omg that was duper fun. Played in the wet bball court and yeahhh ppl fell and tripped and did funny movements and did alot of "act-pro" bouncing only to get the ball snatched and ppl snatching the ball till they rolled on the floor. And Jiwon fell into that puddle of water HAHAHAHA. And Samyata's neon blood. Alot of funny like hell moments i swore i just ran back and forth laughing. Okay i need to stop now or else i'll go on and on.

Fourthly, I like this layout.
Its nice and clean and sleek. And i like my songs toooooO!

Fifthly, I shall go do something more productive.
Like watching Intimate Note/Family Outing. Bye!



AND OMGZWTF i didn't mention bong/tabi/baby/yb/ds or any korean related stuff HA.
I'm blogging about actual life!!! :>

plastic queens and has-beens

God, i don't wanna talk about today.

Ugh x8929277373^873.

:( I think emo-y post tmr? Getting back my sci + maths.

AAAAAAAAAAAH

I miss Cedar Stomp/Prata/Sec 1 Netballers.

I seek comfort and solace in them,

that's why i can't wait for jogging + trng tmr.

Not forgetting amira+nadh+nabilah+arinah (....)
Must i rly say all of them?
You know who you are :)

butterfly

happy 16th, haziq!

Hihihihihi CT(s) are over-over-over! Lit was okay but my PEEL shit was wrongly done. And my geog ah, don't mention it please. And someone anyhow accused me of not studying properly just caused i moaned about it, DON'T JUDGE ME! Just cause you think it easy doesn't mean other people think the same way. Okay? Starting to get srsly annoyed with my classmates. Ugh.

And Kamashi's gone! Haii haii. I rmb she used to whack me in soccer. I sucked sooo bad hahah.

:') Good memories of you only leh. Although we weren't that close....Still missing ya! :) Enjoy life in Qatar yo!

Trng today was quite, idkhowtosayit. Odd? Hahah. Yingying from 1I went to nball trials just now. Then Diviya had to do tumbler thing many times hahhaha and she broke mamamoo's tumbler! Stupid dupid. Hahahahh awww but she overcame it, yay her! (: Umm okay so at one point of trng we had to 'whack' the ball at Jiwon and i felt bad so i threw super high so it won't hit her lah! I'd be traumatised too manzxzxs. She has courage zomg. Next wednesday. Our turn. Shit x200.

Then aft trng blahblah, went opp to eat with Glenda, Natasha, Diviya, Sherly, Amanda, Shahfiqah and Tammy. They ate prata i ate cupnoodle. Hahah best. Then halfway Glenda had to go off, so she left me 1/2 of her fries and like, 3/4 of her drink lahh! Free food and drinks, wahahah i'm sucha cheapo. ETERNAL BROKE :(

Ummmm yeah so that's it today?

Hai yo still have to do maths & sci. Will do so at 11pm! :)

Now its my computer time, to make up for the past mug sessions. Whee.

Dearest Jiyong,

Happy 21st. Although i can bet 1mil on this that you won't read it, i still love you. You're one of my sexiest oppa(s). Love your style your voice your groove your everything! Ignore the plagiarism, the hate, and just concentrate on the loveeee cos your fans have your back all the time. Love love!

So now the copyright owner to Flo Rida’s ‘Right Round’ has came out to confirmed that Big Bang GDragon’s solo debut song ‘HeartBreaker’ has committed plagiarism to the former. And now butterfly is said to have plagiarized some other songs as well?

Well seriously I dont really care. All I want to say is that I love ji yong no matter what shit happens. He is awesome. I wonder why people just cant give him a god damned break because he worked so hard to produce this album already. Why cant they see his hard work but pick out what they deem to be his 'flaws' ?! Ridiculous imo.

P/S: Cedar nball's "exclusive" 107 club is funny hahah! EVEN I KNOW THE PASSWORD :P

P/P/S: Arinah challenged me to keep my smses below 293 this month and she will blanja me donuts for the rest of the wk. Hahahhah. OMG super duper hard!

pictures of you,

Tdy's National Day was quite high lah. Zzzz but still, quite boring overall. Anw, after school went to T1 with Glenda, Natasha, Diviya and Sarah. Then, (kak)Nisa and (kak)Fitriah were also heading there to meet A so we decided to tag along. Umm yeah so basically when we met A it was awkward.....uh nvm i scared if he reads my blog :S so shall not elaborate. Wait but let me add one last thing

HE WAS TOTALLY HITTING ON DIVIYA HAHAHHAHAHA

and me and Glenda were laughing our heads off :)

Halfway kak Nisa had t meet her bf and kak Fitriah had to go...off to meet some buddy(?) person or something so left nballers + A. Awwwwkkkward! And we only met A for the first time on that day and he was alr chatting like we dah kenal lama. Haha. He may be..odd, but he's quite friendly lah. That's all I can say (:

Had fun tdy! Thanks girls :D (ummm..+1 guy?)

Anw. Was reading my old (p6) blog and i re-read my blog again.

Manzzz i went thru alot of shit, but still i survived the hurt the crushing pain the tears...!

Never give up! Ooohh i sound Jkok-ish hahah not a bad thing, not a bad thing. Very motivational!

From my old p6 blog:

Hit replay on relapse,
Repeat the heart bleed,
Slow down on the heart beat.

Title? Emotionally dead.
He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough for me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
He's the time taken up, but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into..

Still hurts.

now i know,

listening to: I dont care - 2NE1

mood: sleeepy

\m/

I think this picture is by far one of the most happiest and natural pictures ever,

:')

k 1.38pm now. i did nothing productive online today besides going online and uploading pics. ):
shall now screw up my CTs anym, studying tmr! watched BOF abit on channel U but i found it xxtremely weird cos of the dual sound and the weird chinesey voice so change channel and watch Crimewatch, v. fascinating hahah and the JI leader thingy's name is Noordin TOP! Hahaha TOP!!! (k nvm if you dont get it) Like BB TOP! Hahaha omg funnnaye.

I don't care by 2NE1's v addictive and v diff from Fire, i must say (:

Changed my blogsong again. Ok 1.41am, slept 5 hrs only todayyst so i'm a sleep-deprived monster :D

Team tee, anyone? (:

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“I never did. I was always Big Bang’s stupid, dispensable, not-as-good-as-Jiyong, nearly-didn’t-make-it maknae and it made me so sick I could throw up.”

AWWW SEUNGRI!

you got the boom boom boom

Hello world! Heheheheeee just now was Express Yourself Day and what i was wearing didn't really expressed myself...so whutevers. Hahaha. Omg lah everyone rly took the effort to dress up, and they all look so hawt especially the upper secs :) Hahahaa! I just wore a pink top, vest and jeans. Hahaha i shall take the effort to dress up more nxt year 8D

Then sprayed hair and blabla, haha omg my vest was stained PINK okay so i hurriedly went to the toilet and i saw..whoa. Barnyard people, Prom people, even TELETUBBIES people ok :O Damn coolio. Hahah :D Then during comm. singing...

1/2 of 1O was superrr bonded can! Umm, Parvathi Diva Brenda Asyikin Nabilah Evangeline Chelsea WanYi Poorani EnChing Skye ummmm i cant rmb lah but we were like hugging and super bonding with each other!!! YAY (1/2) of 1O :) The other half, dont even mention lah -'-" So un-enthu, its rly annoying. Sheesh.

Saw Sarah, Natasha, Amanda and Tammy! :) One look at Sarah's hair and i instantly knew that she was dressing up as 2NE1's Dara. Coconut Boomerang! And Tammy was with her cute pigtails and DIY necklace from the anti-drug thingy omg so kewt. Natasha was v pretty also and Amanda omg super chiooo with the motorbike-y jacket and eyeliner mascara and her hooot HAIR! Hahaha :D

Aft school was NETBALL TRNG!!! Hahahah b4 that i waited for loser Natalie outside her class omg btw she was wearing this pretty dress look like Topshop but idk if its from Topshop ah :S Hahahaha. Then 1/O's purple+pink+blue hairspray still got alot left so we went on a hairspray spree omg you guys should look at our hairrrr! (:
CEDAR NETBALL'S TH (L)!

Natalie & Glenda! Pictures pleeeeease? :D

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All pics uploaded to fbook! And for the sake of people who don't use it (aka Sinyee!) I shall upload it here!
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oh i was so wrong, i can't live without you

"without you i'll be miserable at best,"

training yesterday was awesome, only the sec ones came yayyyy :D
i think the sec ones are super bonded alr. hehe.

anw today was the informal "revealing-day" and my angel was..

DIVIYA ZOMGZZZXSFDC

totally unexpected lah! hahah anw yay (:

today was boring, except P and D entertained me with the "Would You Rather?" game. :B

let me end of with my dearest seungri & top oppa.

xxxx

tonight i've fallen and i can't get up

Today's DSA trials was......odd.
Very fast! & We took a grand total of,
1 photo. And idkwhy i always type 'trials' as 'trails'!
:/

CTs are coming! ):
I hereby give you people permission to scold me if you see my blog or on my MSN.
Raaaaawr.

STUPID NUTALEE GO SAY I SAY SWIEEN GOT SEXY BUTT WTFZZ!!
STUPID OBAMA U GO JB LAH! Hahahahah :)

SHAHFIQAH BOUGHT NEW TENNIS SHOES!
ALL HAIL! :)

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Omg funnnnnnyyyyyyy!
Big Bang Coffee Prince/BOF Parody!






Click here and here to watch the BOF parody (:
Hahahah Coffee Prince one damn funny, they're all gays hee hee.
Love the part where Seungri and Daesung just pops up singing :P

The BOF one, omg girly Daesung with pigtails omg priceless!
TOP looks mad hotter than Junpyo/Tsukasa caaaaaaaaaaaaan and when everytime TOP says
"Shit!" after every kiss just cracks me up and Seungri as Jihooo rockssss
TOP with semi curly hair, aaahhh hotness (:

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cedar netball team

Today's training was HELL. We had to play some court game and for each time we lost possession we have to run and we run more than 20 times (for first half only!) . Didn't eat for lunch and recess. Sun was insanely bright everyone looked like they were going to die. Seriously. Then the seniors started running with us for motivation and encouragement, even though they don't have to. They ran almost all with us. Mingzhen and Ainsley ran ard the court 11 times for us. Thanks lots guys. Was subbed in the second half cannot take it, d-e-a-d.

I will improve my game.
Watch and see.
MUST CAN WILL! :D

CIP for DSA on Sat.
Can skip tuition + madrasah.
Happyyyy!