today was...

so fking disappointing

it hurts when you know you gave your all but your all is not good enough

Mardhiyyah Smbms October 19 at 7:20pm

Sigh. This kind of thing is really kind of common. You know xx? She has lots of complaints about netball. It's okay. Believe in what's morally right. I was suppose to be in netball if not for track picking me and having more rights. I used to think that it would be better if I was in netball. But it's all the same. It's not your teammates though. They didn't make the decision. So yeah, at the end of the day, you're still a team. And make the best out of it. Being in a team includes cheering your team members on. Change your thoughts, and you change your world. When Allah doesn't give you something you want, it means that He has something bigger arranged for you. (:

.........but my senior mardhiyyah gave me some advice that meant the world to me, and thus i thank her from the bottom of my heart♥

at the end of the day, i'm so glad that i have the bestest teammates ever - people that i can rely on 24/7. i love you all ♥

And p/s: No, im not talking bout our date at suntec, girlfs. You guys rock! Will post about my day out + Tammy's loveletter later.

way to find out if someone's a true friend:

see if their still there if times are hard.
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my conclusion: they're not there.


ilysfm tammy and diviya for listening to me when i'm down. love you guys sosososo much ;)

plastic queens and has-beens

God, i don't wanna talk about today.

Ugh x8929277373^873.

:( I think emo-y post tmr? Getting back my sci + maths.

AAAAAAAAAAAH

I miss Cedar Stomp/Prata/Sec 1 Netballers.

I seek comfort and solace in them,

that's why i can't wait for jogging + trng tmr.

Not forgetting amira+nadh+nabilah+arinah (....)
Must i rly say all of them?
You know who you are :)

do you even remember,

I just realised that me and Marissa would accidentally wear the same/similar clothes everytime we go out lor!




Hahaha. I loved my pink shirt.

Ok study time.
Oh, and Happy (belated) b'day aisyah. Proper post for you tmr or smt.
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Did you forget
That I was even alive
Did you forget
Everything we ever had
Did you forget
About me

I just lost something very special to me. F that bus 359.
Ugh. :'( I'm sorry, T. I really loved it.

and i suddenly remembered,

your voice, over the phone at 1 in the morning,

telling me to cheer up and have fun,

now it's all gone,

you've changed so much,

from becoming the guy i love,

to the guy i don't know.

where'd you go?

pictures of you,

Tdy's National Day was quite high lah. Zzzz but still, quite boring overall. Anw, after school went to T1 with Glenda, Natasha, Diviya and Sarah. Then, (kak)Nisa and (kak)Fitriah were also heading there to meet A so we decided to tag along. Umm yeah so basically when we met A it was awkward.....uh nvm i scared if he reads my blog :S so shall not elaborate. Wait but let me add one last thing

HE WAS TOTALLY HITTING ON DIVIYA HAHAHHAHAHA

and me and Glenda were laughing our heads off :)

Halfway kak Nisa had t meet her bf and kak Fitriah had to go...off to meet some buddy(?) person or something so left nballers + A. Awwwwkkkward! And we only met A for the first time on that day and he was alr chatting like we dah kenal lama. Haha. He may be..odd, but he's quite friendly lah. That's all I can say (:

Had fun tdy! Thanks girls :D (ummm..+1 guy?)

Anw. Was reading my old (p6) blog and i re-read my blog again.

Manzzz i went thru alot of shit, but still i survived the hurt the crushing pain the tears...!

Never give up! Ooohh i sound Jkok-ish hahah not a bad thing, not a bad thing. Very motivational!

From my old p6 blog:

Hit replay on relapse,
Repeat the heart bleed,
Slow down on the heart beat.

Title? Emotionally dead.
He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough for me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
He's the time taken up, but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into..

Still hurts.