without words

I like this ^ picture above. Can't help staring ideky. Even though Ji's face is practically non-existent and the animations move too fast i like it so much :> Maybe because Ri looks good screaming (boy has got good hair the past few days) and TOP looks like a bad ass. Miss my big bang boys sfm. I feel quite guilty actually, cos i've been devoting myself to 2pm so much i forgot about these ^ boys that brought me to the kpop world. Aghhhhh. I don't even know why but that stupid RI faggot said something that made me quite :/ actually.

"You are not a true V.I.P"

Well you say that I may be shallow cos i take offence over these kinda stuff easily but it made me relate to more rl stuff.
It is quite true, when I'm doing something else I'm always neglecting the other. Like for example, studies, family friends etc etc etc. When I'm around w my teammates i tend to neglect other friends and stuff. Mianhae~

And i've been a terrible person, so cranky and annoying. I get annoyed at the littlest things, and I snap back at my parents so easily, and they'll give me the x342524 on repeat "bad influence at Cedar/i regretted sending you there" thought. And the sad thing is I don't really feel sad about it anymore. Shit. I'm supposed to care when my parents scold me, but now I'm just turning a deaf ear. And I have like a massssssive ego so when I'm in the wrong I don't really admit it; I don't apologize easily.

Ok I have no idea what I'm yabbering about, so yes i think i'd better leave LJ and start on my last two episodes of YB while eating ramen. I hope it'll calm me down a little. And yeah, managed Your Call and Haru Haru on guitar. Fingers are so numb rn, i can't feel anything. Am going to start with Tired Of Waiting if i have the time.

YB here I come for you! Plz do not disappoint me.

today was...

so fking disappointing

it hurts when you know you gave your all but your all is not good enough

Mardhiyyah Smbms October 19 at 7:20pm

Sigh. This kind of thing is really kind of common. You know xx? She has lots of complaints about netball. It's okay. Believe in what's morally right. I was suppose to be in netball if not for track picking me and having more rights. I used to think that it would be better if I was in netball. But it's all the same. It's not your teammates though. They didn't make the decision. So yeah, at the end of the day, you're still a team. And make the best out of it. Being in a team includes cheering your team members on. Change your thoughts, and you change your world. When Allah doesn't give you something you want, it means that He has something bigger arranged for you. (:

.........but my senior mardhiyyah gave me some advice that meant the world to me, and thus i thank her from the bottom of my heart♥

at the end of the day, i'm so glad that i have the bestest teammates ever - people that i can rely on 24/7. i love you all ♥

And p/s: No, im not talking bout our date at suntec, girlfs. You guys rock! Will post about my day out + Tammy's loveletter later.

i can wait forever

Had a great talk with Shahf just now on the bus ride home, its been so long

Nothing's back to normal but whatevs, we'll work it out

Did i tell you how much I love my seniors? I love them alot alot alot alot alot.

Awesomest people on the surface of the Earth! :D And I just realised, none of the nball seniors read my blog. Good that they don't :) Sometimes I wonder next year my juniors and I, Will we be close? I really, really hope so B) Then we (cedar prata) will be like the coolest seniors ever.

Just now TOP period was real fun. Loved sitting with the Netballers. Imagine if i'd accepted Mr Tan's offer for me to go jumps. I'll be like in

~Cedar Track and Field~

Hahahah just had to add the wings there. Track's really good and godly.

I love love Cedar Girls'!
And that is precisely why I am going back to Meridian to promote the sexiest girls school alive B)

Tay just called me and I agreed to go and promote to the top 2 classes lol.

(I'm sorry for the incoherent ramblings and so on. TOP and Ri on my desktop is killing me)

Okay fishies, off to write my special letter for Arinahlove! :)

i'll be your courage.

hello guys.

This week is gonna be tough i hope i will pull through. I really dont wanna retain. sigh what happened to the earlier promises i made to myself towards the start of the year? Its like they're gone with the wind now. I wish i could. But top 10 in class is too far from now. Now all I want is to be able to promote, that simple.

Its 8.30pm now. I was distracted. urgh. Think im gonna study till the wee hours today. Am determined to complete 2-3 chaps today. left with 2/4 of chap 8 then do 1-2 more.

I dont want to get stuck in nowhere because I made a wrong decision going to this school -cgss. The more I'll work hard so I will promote. Back 2 books now. Had more than enough rest.

I still have Maths to go. Then geog. Don't think i'm going to sleep at all. Sigh.

Take care people. Mug hard for the exams. Do it like its your last shot. Dont retain.

p/s: Changed the blogskin again. Was sick of the previous one. Featuring Taec. Luvluv him.

its 11:11

kwon ji yong (:




are you thinking of me now?

ihateyousoverymuchtyvm

A few days ago we got a free netbook and its sitting prettily in my room. Its damn slow (I detest IE) so i downloaded MFF (which made it worse) and my last resort was Google Chrome and surprisingly it worked like 99840872384x faster :O Heheheh.

Training next week.

I want it but sorta dread it, its been donkeeeey years since I ACTUALLY PLAYED NETBALL :/

Mon 3-5pm Jkok,

Wed 2-5pm Weili

Fri 2-3.30pm Ms Chng

Should be okay lah, i guess...?

Sometimes, I feel like i'm never truly happy.